Headache from hell

Just a warning this is a huge vent...

I have had headaches for about ten years now, you see that's the problem. I really am againest them, in fact i try to ignore the fact that everyday i have had a headache and then i get a fricken migraine on top of that at least twice a week. I have tried a shitload of medication (i have too many pill bottles), i have been hospitalized, i have had my head MRIed more times that i want to count, and this last attempt is shots. SHOTS. The first two rounds did nothing except make me act like a drunk for three days. Oh to do these shots i am put under, and when waking up it takes me a lot longer than any other patient because i guess i want to be cool. This last round which i have no clue where they stuck me, the back of my head hurts a lot worse than it did before i went in. I go in a week to see the pain guy and hopefully he has some answers if not then i guess i will try another neuro *has shivers up the spine*. The pain is like someone took a 6X6 chunk of wood and swung it super hard at the back of my head, plus i get pressure too, and currently my eyesight sucks. Double vision, losing vision...driving is interesting. Oh did i mention that i think my neck will snap off because let's face it, it will happen because my head feels too heavy for my neck to support.

i hate this

Holy Shit!

It's been awhile since i have blogged, yes im a bad person. August was rather fun, including buying three more goats which are from Texas and Utah. Now you see the problem is not that they are new but the ones from Texas aren't used to human life. They are awesome looking and in fact genetics that i wanted for some time. I have two more girls (one is due in dec and the other in jan) and the buck, oh the buck. He is red, pure red in color. Also a devil. You see he was used to 18,000 acres in texas, probably not that big of a pen for him to be in but still huge and wide open spaces. Here in ohio, it's not wide open spaces. He has attempted to jump out of the pen when dad and i were in the barn, when i tried to grab the halter. So only one person can try to bond with him at a time. Now tonight dad and i went out to feed critters....the buck wasn't in the pen, he was out of the pen, out on the barn floor. Now you might see his rather funny because he didn't have a name when i got him, and my brother suggested Holy Shit because he can clear a 4 ft fence no questions asked. His offical name will be C-N Airborne Red. It fits. So back to tonight, dad went out and shut the door so he wouldn't fly out the half barn door then oh it would be fun. I grab his halter and he doesn't move not even an inch. So dad takes the lead i get behind him, tap him on his side thinking he will bolt, nope. So i pull his tail ---just a little and bingo, bolting begjns and dad is like wow. Now the other two see Red fly in the pen and he scares the doe from texas and she flings herself in the hay manger...lovely another crazy ass flying goat. So i doubt these girls will need help with birthing because the kids will fly out. If they do need help, i will probably swear until i can't anymore.

Did i mention i have 14 due, 12 of which are probably due within a week of each other because i like challenge or i was an idiot again. You chose.

Life

So life in general doesn't suck too much, just a few points of this week. Let's take this first example oh because i love to share animal stories, my old dog aka non friendly dog okay so i have two unfriendly dogs, get used to it. The old dog has been losing weight again, so much my dad commented i think your dog is sick ---first off when did he become "my dog", second what am i supposed to do about it? Literally take some crap of his and get it tested for worms. Now where i used to work i would take in a sample and if needed they sent me home with drugs...the vet i use for the goats have never seen him in the office only on farm calls and let's just say he's not friendly towards them. They questioned me on the phone about seeing him (and he is NOT FRIENDLY!) and i gave them the speech i know it's worms ---well how do you know, let's take a look at what he eats kitty treats, raccoon treats, well any kind of treats. So i got permission to bring in a crap oh i mean stool sample. Low and behold it's worms....gee i wouldn't have thunk. Now onto the solution or i mean drugs that i have to give him. Last year it was pills, stick them in a can of dog food, done. Not this time, no it couldn't be simple it has to be difficult. Not one nor two but THREE syringes of wormer medication for three fricken days, lovely. I asked can i put them in a can of dog food, oh no cuz he probably wouldn't eat it. great. So i come home with the syringes and stuff for the goats (you know the medications i put off getting cuz i love spending a chunk of money at once lol), i told dad i was going out to medicate the old man. Now this is the fun part getting him to take the medication. I have drenched him before, so im like no need for a muzzle. m.i.s.t.a.k.e. I got half of the 24 CC aka over an ounce of white liquid shit down his gullet but he ran away, no problem got him back and he chomped on my pinkie finger and put a hole in my shorts. NO TEARS, just cussing like a sailor, and i got the muzzle out and muzzle his happy ass and shoved the rest down. So for two days muzzle and drench. My pinkie will survive or so i hope.

While at the vet's im like the young dog needs a rabies shot, so i have an appt on wednesday, which i have told them just a rabies shot and the dog stays in the back of the truck with a muzzle on cuz he doesn't walk on a leash. Fun times should be had by all involved.

Going thru the papers

So a comment was left with how come i don't want to repeat HS? Going thru the IEP's i had i guess i never really thought of myself that sick. Homebound. I would go thru months of the tutor not coming because i couldn't get up and moving, my body was so fragile. I can't believe it's been five years since i graduated. I don't want to go back to being homebound. No way.

So i have to balance my life out which i am doing. It's a little painful but at the same time i know it's for the good.

2 Week Notice

So in less than two weeks, i will have no job. The owner cut my hours down to less than nothing. That's right, offically two weeks but starting today i am in the market for a new job. The owner is baffled that i turned in a two week notice, didn't she know that last week i was ready to quit then? So anyway she wanted the real reason i am quitting and school isn't something that she was falling for. So now something i was hiding i had to tell her, which is my health. I was straight foward and said i DO NOT want to repeat what my life was like in high school. So now i am soon to be jobless, starting college (waiting on FAFSA), and trying to get my health back on track.

I need a little job something of 10 hrs a week or so just enough to pay for gas and some other stuff. If anyone has some tips, shoot them my way. :)

First Blog!

Where do I start? In about two weeks or less i will be jobless, but starting August 25 i will be a full fledged college student, im taking ten credit hours and believe me i'm stoked. This job i have had for a year and half about, it's a great first job but it's time to move on. So what am i doing till August? Let's see i have to clean up my room ya that's gonna take a week or more, i need to get my health into check, do some stuff around the house and well let's see what else oh ya perhaps a road trip.